I Have Nothing Left to Lose, I'm so Messed Up.

I have no future.

I seriously don't. I have no idea where I am going with life... it's quite terrifying. My friend got accepted into the Ryerson program of Journalism, which I WISH I could be in. I DREAM IT. But I have too many credits at U of T to just stop and start over. Anyways, I would never get into it. He was saying how he was told he had 'natural talent'. I've never been told that. How the hell am I going to get into anything without talent?

It's really upsetting. I'm quite worried I'm just going to graduate and with lack of anything to do become a teacher - no offense to teachers, but it's just not for me.

My friend's band, The Mission District, has gone through some crazy updates today. For one, their keyboard player, Evan, has left. Which is really sad, and as awful as it is to say, I'm not too surprised. They also put up new pictures from their photoshoot and a new profile layout.

Their layout looks amazing, very professional, but honestly, I haven't been too super psyched about their slow change.

I've realize that my love of that electro pop stuff was really just a phase. Sure I enjoy it once and a while, but unless they are extremely good, I don't love them. I loved their earlier music, back in the day of their EP where it had a lot of strong rock background but also the lighter poppier stuff. It was so delightful and delicious.

Their CD, Youth Games, followed suit with strong guitar sounds, and full voiced harmonies, and well, I didn't love it as much as their EP, but it was still good.

Now their new stuff, I'm not a huge fan of. It's not bad, it's just not for me. I'm not into the synthetic violin sound, and it just sounds much more fluffy and poppier.

Sorry if any of the guys are reading this, I still love you, it's just not my style.

But their my friends, and I support them no matter what.

Man I feel like such a betrayer.

Well that's where I stand.

Speaking of Music, here are some bands of what I've been listening to lately.

1. The Kooks

2. The Strokes

3. Alexisonfire

4. The Smashing Pumpkins

5. Emery

Check them out, they are all amazing.

Love ya.