Seriously, I've been thinking a lot (what a surprise). No, I'm not thinking of becoming a prostitute but I bet I'd make some serious bucks compared to what I am making now.
I've been thinking about who I am as a person.
It's very different hanging out with friends once and a while, and living with them for four days while driving around the country (which was still amazing!) And while I still love my friends, probably love them even more now, it makes me question what kind of person I am.
I'm kind of... boring.
I'm very awkward when meeting new people. Well not all new people, more like meeting bands. It's not that I am star-struck or anything. I'm just awkward - I have nothing really to say. So I kind of just chill out in the background while my friends chat it up (I have no idea how they do it). I'm very envious of that skill, but it's probably one of the reason I have so few friends.
But then again, I don't think I want to change who I am, just because bands don't know me nor want to be my best friend.
I'm quite pleased with my awkward self, and I'm starting to think that perhaps I don't want to change as much as I thought I did before.
I don't care that I don't dress like all those fashionista hipsters - with their leggings and headbands and Queen Street cool. I dress like a boy - wearing oversized t-shirts and skinny jeans that are so tight, it's emo.
I don't care that if presented with a choice of a weeks worth of food or starvation and the City and Colours EPs, I would sure as hell go for them EPs.
I don't care if my boss thinks my pop-rock, pop-punk music is dumb. I love it and that's all that matters!
And though I do care that I still can't seduce a boy worth shit, maybe the boy just isn't worth it.
Though it is annoying constantly falling for people who don't give a fuck about you.
So that is prostitution.
My revolution.
1 comments:
I bet you'd want those EPs for Wapner, eh? ;)
Don't worry, I used to be a socially awkward person and eventually along the way I grew some balls.
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